" Just as i expected, people that mean the most to you aren't there when you need them. All you find is you writing down your thoughts and drowning yourself in music. You aren't there when i needed you. Neither have i ever mention it to you or say it but you aren't there. Not you but you. I guess you really do have to be the most dependent on yourself in the time of need. .. With everything. People ins't showing me that they deserve the position they are at in my life. I am sorry but it's true, well im glad it's only for the minority though.

I was there for you, but why didn't you do the same? Even a simple gesture or reply would be great, but all you did was nothing.

Even after you saw what i wrote? If you fell asleep, it doesn't matter, bu the thing is, you were awake. Doesn't it at the very least bother you? Yes, everyone has problems and all but maybe having the reoccurring thought to even ask me how i was doing just for the sake of it would be good? But you didn't. Maybe, that's what i have to accept it in in my life.

Maybe i shouldn't expect so much anymore?

Maybe i should think whether you deserve it. 

Maybe i should think whether you will still look back and seach for me when i fall or stumble? Or would you just leave me behind? 

But seriously, i don't know what to feel at that point of time but just disappointment and sadness?"

#Denise reflections @ 1247am.