Im here again, blogging. ;)

Well, had chinese o's today.

Well, honestly im just afraid of the outcome and how it'll be.

I honestly dun want to retake it, but then again. I really got no ideaa.

I want to get at least an A2, but honestly? I dun think so.

If i do, dammm. It'll be a miracle, and my mum will finally be proud of meee.

The aircon was super cold, i was still cold even though i had my hooodie on. :)

My hands were freeezing.

I wonder how the people that didn't bring their jacket survived inside.

I really wonder.

Oh and i forgot to wear uniform, so i was like one of the outcaster.

Super weird.

But whatever.

I came home early, and shit started happening.

Oh god.

I've learnt my lesson, just stay out and dun come home early.

Really. I've learnt my lesson.

 That photo is in my the other camera, im tooo lazy to get the card reader and everything.
Next post maybe.
Yeah, that's all. I've got nothing much to blog about.
Im just disappointed that i cant get my studded high wasietd shorts.
Im tooo fat to fit. God dammit.


Words can be so deadly dun you think so?
Today one of the passages was about words.
It can either be building them up, or just tearing them down like no one's business.
Guess what?
I honestly got no idea how to describe the hurt inside of me?
It's just great, but i dun show it.
Im always trying to please everyone, in terms of looks and expectations.
Well, for academic expectations, i always fail. But im always working to become what others want me to be.
Honestly, it feeels great being skinny. And i want to be her again.
So im working on it.
But honestly, im not happy.
Im insecure maybe? And it's the insecurities that are eating me inside.
I've high expectations on my love ones and they're always disappointing me.
Or the other way around, and i hate it so much. And it have got to stop.
The times when im in trouble, or i need someone to be there for me?
Im alone. Really.
And im kinda used to it.
I'll just go through it myself, try to forget about it? And act all happy again.
Of course there are times when im really happy. But it's seldom.
Im happy when im with the ones i love. But i dunnnoo...
Im just sad when they arent there for me when i really need them.
I guess im just a demanding bitch eh?
If my mum really wants to send me there, go ahead.
At least someone's listening to me. I've been there before, and im sure i can do it the second/thrid time?
Whatever.