Hi people who are having fun this week.

You guys are so fucking lucky.

I hate this weeek so much.

Didn't start off well at all.

It just isnt my weeek.

Shits here shits there.

Emo here, emo there. 

I had a choice, but i did it willingly.

I think it hooked onto me alr.

Tuesday and wednesday was the worst.

Well, today too.

I hope it pops up later. Im always looking out for it.

Argh, seriously why cant life go the way you want it to be?

Why cant you be happy for rest of your life, and not worry about a single shit?

Well, i guess that's why feelings existed.

But they can take over you sometimes, kinda a good and bad thing.

I dun want anyone to think it's their fault or he's or her's or whoever.

I choose to care, that's why im feeling it. You should be glad.

It means you are important to me.

I just want to help so bad, but i dunnno how to.

I guess the only thing i can do it hug.

Well, personally i love hugs. Tight and long ones.

It would be even awesome if it's from someone you love.

I just hope all this shits will end, we will carry on with our normal life.

I just hope that this shit will draw us closer.

I swear, i have never wait for smth before. It's always others.

I know how it feels now.

Im just afraid it was just all my illusion, and i'll make myself look like a doof.

But i needa complete my mission tooo.

Im just so anxious and curious to know what exactly is going on.

Then i know better, and i have a clearer picture instead of always scaring myself.

Sometimes, it's good scaring yourself, think of the saddest outcome.

Well, at least you're kinda prepared for it.

But i swear, i havent felt this feeling for a long time.

I think i fell for something hard.

Monday, we won. Against fairfield.

               it was one of the best days in the week. In the hall. Playing tckouball and frisbee.

Tuesday, i saw you peeping, emo day

Wednesday, the emoest day.

Thursday, emo day again.

Friday, it was kinda okay, but still emo. 

           And i lost a fucking opportunity which made me regret the entire day

Yesterday, i went for kayaking, got my mind off stuffs. Which was good. But it starts to crumble back down                        again

You guys should know this, i really overthink too much. 

And i have no confidence in myself sometimes.

I think im not good enough most of the times.

On friday, i saw pictures i wished i nvr saw. But i did.

I felt a feeling of betrayal and disappointment overwhelm me.

Should i clarify? Maybe i should. But not now.

So i guess my dream was kinda real? Maybe it happened to them before.

I dunnnoo. But now isn't the time.

I'll wait, and i promise you are not alone.

Just so mentally and emotionally drained.

 I love her books. Bought vanishing acts last saturday. What a day.

 On wednesday, me and faber just laid in the court.
I was just staring at the clouds. And faber introduced songs to me. I was just so down. I didn't know what to do at all.
So i kinda stones. Then i started listening to 'call me maybe'
And the picture? i wasn't smiling. Just looking at the camera.
I threw all my emotions out. Tckoball, handball, whatever shit.

Yup, that's my weeek. Sucky ttm.
I really hope it'll end, next week will be a better weeek.
I willl complete my mission sooon. And see a smile.
And everything go back to normal.
We'll seee, and i'll wait.






Tumblr expresses my thoughts at times.





Hey i just met you, and this is crazy.
But here's my number so call me maybe.
And all the other boys tried to chase me,
but here's my number so call me maybe.