When everything in life was going well, somehow everything will just be fucked up at some point of time.
It's when your world comes crashing down that feeling of helplessness sucks.
You pick up the pieces that were left behind, desperately wanting to fix everything back into place. However, things doesn't always go your way.
You blame on everything around you, especially yourself.
You comfort yourself saying that it will be a better day the next day, but it never comes.
You brush off that feeling, that shitty feeling and telling yourself that you weren't supposed to feel this way. When things starts to drift, you see others taking up that place where you were once there.
It's like you were just that easily replaced.
You doubt whether your exsistence even meant anything to them.
Apparently, they were actually better without you.
In fact, you never crossed their mind before and guess what? You were just their backup plan when they needed you.
You just tell yourself to 'Suck it up.'

However, everyone has their limits, and when you can't take it anymore. Maybe that's when things get ugly.
You get annoyed at the slightest things even though it was unintentionally and you tell yourself to stop it. But the monster in your head is the one taking over control.

It came to a point when you just wanted everything to be okay, but you just know it would never be the same. You have been replaced, hurt, betrayed and some other emotions that you aren't even sure of.
Sometimes, don't you wish you could rewind time and set everything right?
Haven't you realised that people you love are the ones that hurt you the most?
If they had to thought of leaving you, you weren't good enough and that you just aren't the one for them even though they were the one for you. Or at least you thought you were.

All you want to focus now is not to feel shitty and crappy anymore. You want to just find the happiness in you again, the one you felt when you were with the people that meant most.
But it's just not the same anymore.
It's like smiling is a chore.

Im happy that things are going well for you.
How could you not be sure and thought of getting over
Was it that easy that for you? Im trying my best if that's what you want.
But it's so hard. If it's the best for you i guess i would do that.
Im just disappointed, after everything you're just going to treat me like nothing have happened?
It's so obvious that i am replaced.
You dont even care about me anymore.
Im guessing you know her timetable and shit better than mine.
Maybe everything has changed, priorities and all.

I guess since you were trying to do that for the past few weeks, am i supposed to follow you?
Or am i supposed to wait?
I guess im nothing to you anymore.
I just want everything to go back to the same again.